my confessions...!: October 2005

why is it that when you're telling the truth no one will believe you, but if you're not they insist it is... why do they have to tell me who am i to go with and who's not? do they really don't have that trust? well i don't know for the others but for me it is really painful when they just suddenly accuse you of something you can't think you can do it.. it's not that i don't have that confidence or whatsoever, it's like in the past few days when something is losing they will immediately think that its i who did it when in fact i do not know what's missing thus i wasn't even at the place where the incident happened., when they see that you're stuttering at the every word you say they will immediately conclude that its you... well we all know that it's a sin when you accused someone not even knowing what really happened nor getting mad but though they say that it's only you or i who was left while we're somewhere else or blah... blah... then everything and everyone around you changes, just because of that.... when you're going somewhere else they will think that you're on a date when you're not or when they see me talking w/a group of pipz they don't know they will think that i'm on something that it's just a lie when i will tell them that where just talking about our projects or the happenings around us., you see it really hurts when the only persons you can turn to are the persons who will let you down, that instead they will give you the best encouraging words to inspire me they will tell 'hey that's not good for you!' or 'they're bad influence' because of what they saw; it's like they knew already the person whom i'm going with everyday when infact it was their first time to see each other., i really can't help getting mad at them sometimes because of it. i couldn't believe that they can do it in front of me and tells you that i must not go with them anymore, because they're not doing any good to me.. if they only knew that what they're saying is hurting me., that is why sometimes i think that it's better to get beaten than hearing those painful words over and over again.... hmmmm.. do hope that someday they will realize that the words they're saying was much worse than hitting me....