my confessions...!

1-1-2012

2012-01-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

just did some regular stuff like eating and watching tv, but later in the afternoon we went to my aunt's house for a visit and some follow up for their upcoming reunion, and then went home... happy new year...

xmas parties in a row...

2011-12-14T13:55:00.001+08:00

last dec. 10, 2011 I attended a xmas party with my college friends... although the no. is not so big but still we were able to have fun, from videoke to xchange gifts and games.... and come to think of it, that might be only a pre-xmas party of our group, because like what my other friend says due to the public demand there will be another party that will be held @ 1 of our classmate's house which is Leizl's house in SMS.. hahaha sorry liz, majority wins... here are some of the shots that were taken during the dec. 10 xmas' party...

and the following day dec. 11, 2011, again I had to prepare for another party that I have to attend to which is the DAVAO BLOGGERS BLACK&WHITE CHRISTMAS BALL 2011 that was held at Cafe Aurora in The Metropolis Suites. that was my 2nd time to be able to attend such party of an organization which I'm one of the members. that time we have to wear formal in black or white to vouch for the event's theme... in fairness to the organizers I saw that everyone had so much fun that night including me so thanks to them... :P and again here's some snapshots taken during the event..

DAVAO BLOGGERS President Leah Valle

Rep. of Davao City Mayor Sarah Dutere from DOT

RD of Tourism Davao chapter

:D

2011-11-06T16:39:00.001+08:00

I've grown to love you more while being being with you because honestly at first I don't think I've felt something other than just being friends, didn't feel any spark like the other girls did when just starting to have their relationship to being more than just friends... but as time goes by, seeing you trying your best to please me in any way you can, what else can I ask for?! you did make me fall for you for no reason.. hoping you just keep being the way you are and please don't change... :D

honestly

2011-11-04T09:03:00.001+08:00

seriously and HONESTLY, i'm kinda tired working as an employee... I want to have a work which will make me as the BOSS...! hahaha

2011-02-28T13:31:00.000+08:00

if we haven't owed you something the hell I care what or where are you right now... you really changed a lot and I can't stand it, it makes me sick by just thinking of it... you were one of those who was expected to support all through this time but look what you are trying to do..? it seems like you don't want to help and you're pushing yourself so far from us & if I were you don't turn back because I doubt or I don't know if someone will watch out for you...

i'm back....

2010-07-09T11:02:00.001+08:00

i will be back for sure...

hello....

2009-11-14T21:56:00.003+08:00

what a day... why is it these days i'm soooooo moody...?!!! it's like i''m in an outrage ready to go in a war or something... i was kinda bothered of something that i don't know what it is and that's what makes mem angry... tsk... tsk... tsk... anyway... it's so good to be abck here... see you soon...

damn...

2009-06-19T10:28:00.002+08:00

it was so unnerving and i can't take it... i really don't know if i did something stupid but i can feel it... and again i want it to be erased, as in totally obliterate...

just...

2009-01-01T18:13:00.003+08:00

just when i thought i was over you...! familiar... yeah right... and i really hate it... why do i have to see your picture? and why you keep popping out in my dreams...?!! duh.. it really sucks...

shattered optimism...

2008-12-10T15:49:00.003+08:00

they say that what makes the old days special is the means each one reminisce the farther like when we're isolated, we yearn the talks, the laughters and the continuance we've been together... as vitality is a perpetual diminish, LOVE is the tremendous astonishment... it takes endeavor and admission... i always choke up whenever i'm hurt, and pessismistic when being omitted... but as what my friends say, i must seize and always bear in mind that LOVE shake up when it's real...

well... well... well...

2008-10-29T02:07:00.000+08:00

moved over ____________________ here comes my flintstone...

2008-07-18T08:21:00.002+08:00

'i caught myself thinking of the moments spent with you... maybe i'm a little bit lonely! but being far from you gives me chance to realize how much you mean to me... and how much i miss your company...!'

got this quote from the cellphone of my dear sister, and i just can't help myself posting it here, maybe because i can picture myself in it...

2008-07-15T09:22:00.002+08:00

should i divulge my feelings for you? but honestly i do repute that you already know...

hahaha

2008-07-03T09:38:00.001+08:00

at last i found you.... but for no reason why i feel nothing about it...

2008-06-12T13:58:00.002+08:00

now that my birthday is coming up, why i keep seeing things that reminds me of you....? is it because i always kept thinking of you...???

2008-05-10T09:49:00.002+08:00

i'm back.... sorry guyz if i made you worry, it's just that i can't just easily use an internet connection w/in my workplace because.... i was the only one using the pc, and if something happens to it well i'm dead in other words goodbye...

just when...

2008-03-08T15:51:00.003+08:00

oh my... just when i thought i was over you, but now why is it that it bothers me a lot...?!!! and as i was trying so hard of what it is, i realized that it pained me so much that i just don't know what to do, i really do... but why?

greetings

2008-03-01T14:53:00.001+08:00

happy birthday MARY GRACE IGNACIO....!!! as always wishing you all the best and luck may you have many more bbirths to come.... mwu..............................ah...!!

spark...!

2008-02-21T08:36:00.010+08:00

lately i realize that seeing you doesn't affect me at all, you know the SPARK i usually felt everytime we came across somewhere anywhere whatever. well i really don't have to though i don't know if i'm that transparent or whatever you may call it. as of nowadays i always beam at something that i do not know if i have to because i don't know if it is that momentous. still at this defining moment i don't even discern this affections i had inside if i should compelled it or not.

baaaad creeedits....!

2008-02-16T20:08:00.003+08:00

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2008-02-13T09:21:00.002+08:00

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2008-02-13T09:13:00.001+08:00

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2008-02-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

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2008-02-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

'i think of you too often wishing we'd be free... all the things i wish to happen never came for you and me'

sounds familiar? well you guys are right, i got this line from a song that until know i don't know what the title is... well anyways, why i posted this? it's because, it affects me a bit... i always have this intuition of someone so dear to me, s/he nice sometimes cocky but i don't care about it, what i'm worried about right now is that it feels like we need some space to have that depth of swallowing our pride of staying away with each other. it feels weird that we may be near with each other lately physically but we're not when it comes to mentally spiritually and emotionally... i was always thought that never to give up on something that i know i can do it, but what can i do if it will never really happen...? i know that we cannot get all what we want and must wait until such time when we almost gave up but still has this fool's paradise... though it's tormenting but we have to, to soothe the situation we're in...

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2008-01-30T09:34:00.000+08:00

we're you right now...?!!! i don't know but somehow i really miss you... the times where we seem like we always fight but we're not... though we've not been together but those memories we once shared that will haunt me constantly... why you're like that? our world now seems to blunder that needs strength. i hope someday i'll have this chance to talk to you once more sort things out, not like this were we seem like strangers...

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2008-01-22T14:28:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-22T14:20:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-16T08:37:00.000+08:00

people are weird in so many ways that i always find it amusing.

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2008-01-16T08:34:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-14T08:50:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-09T09:07:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-09T08:22:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

poker online or online poker or whatever it is called still it a gambling. maybe in a illegal way? well it doesn't matter but still i don't get it why you have to play it internet. how will you be able to make sure that if ever you will win you will get the benefits that it offers after winning the game. according to the site there were many kinds of poker some were called virgin poker which its draws enormous no. of clients. it's law is very easy spending most of your time and money just playing the game which is for me a waste of time it says that the mor v point you will get. well it maybe a waste of time for me but for those who had nothing to do this type of pleasure will make their time worth it.

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2008-01-08T08:28:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-11T09:49:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-06T10:17:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-06T10:11:00.000+08:00

sometimes people around ar sooooooooooooo dumb and stupid. they don't care if they've hurt someone they just do what they want without noticing if it is okay for them to do so.... what is right for them is to get burned........................!!!

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2007-12-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

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mislaid...

2007-12-04T13:20:00.001+08:00

i'm so bad but i don't know why? i'm so lost that i don't even know where to go to... i really feel that i'm a moronic one who did nothing but just to make people pissed off... it makes me sad because i don't feel whom i should rumble with... it's really bothering seeing things that you do not know wether you should react or not. well i guess i'll just wait and see what will follow for me to stop bothering something maybe that i shouldn't have to.

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2007-12-03T08:57:00.000+08:00

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this...

2007-12-01T10:42:00.000+08:00

do people notice when i'm in such sour mood or something..? i don't think so... well that's what i'm capable of hiding something though already on the verge to explode when not drawn out. why can't i get over with this....? the agony i had inside now, why is it so painful...?!!! it's killing me... i haven't done anything wrong but why can't i be calm? it's making me cry at night when just thinking about before going to sleep... o crap it's freaking me out if i stil can't do anything about it... i'm not used to express on what is on my mind but there's nothing i can do. not that i trust no one maybe i'm not that confident enough to tell how or what i feel at a certain moment when i needed someone to be there beside me... good thing this blog thing appears where as far as i know put my sentiments and frustrations. people say that nobody will hear your song if you only sing in your heart, you have to give voice to your thoughts for them to be heard. i may have this song of mine in my heart but the person who might be listening to it is not yet born so maybe that is why i still can't voice the thought in it... hhmmm well, hopefully someday i will be able to find that someone (neither a a boy or girl) whom i know is worth to listening to my song that i have to voice out....

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2007-11-29T18:03:00.000+08:00

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digital photo frames

2007-11-28T07:39:00.000+08:00

As i went to the mall yesterday i notice a certain display of photo frame which is kinda of unique, why? because it has i think a remote control and when i was asking the sales lady about it she said that it is indeed a digital photo frame. I was so amaze because i never thought that even the photo frames could be converted into digital.

Nowadays digital cameras and camera phones have became a part of our lives without then thinking about the cost of processing its film. Thus at present it seems like the only way we could view our photos continuously is by printing them all and store it in different kinds of album of different sizes.

And now is the right time to switch this album into digital picture frame wherein we just take a picture or movie then switch its memory card to the digital frame and view. Like it says it's a digital frame we can now all see our happy snaps consistently in all areas of our home on this fashionably stylish digital photo frame. As what i have understand in the site, we can even set the period of time when we want our pictures to be displayed and how we prefer its transitions.

So what are you guyz and galz waiting for? why not purchase this new gadgets the awaits you and you can just sit back and enjoy watching the memories you had with your family and friends.

save buckets

2007-11-27T08:22:00.000+08:00

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And well, to all those music lover out there, here is the site where you can choose any kind of gadget or product where you can store all of your favorite music to listen.

unexpectedly

2007-11-26T08:32:00.000+08:00

oh my... what a night... honestly i really don't know what or how to say it... it's just that i felt stupid at that time., i don't know how to interact with the person whom i've just met though we've been in touch for quite sometime tru the text... i don't know, but for me i'm not the kind of person who easily interacts with someone whom i've just met and it's not easy because i don't know how will i do it to make him comfortable and assures that everything is ok..., and that night i think was so tiring, having to go here and there unexpectedly that had consume my energy that i was saving for that night... well maybe i was just too preoccupied with so many things that i wasn't able to know what to do and looked tongue-tied in front of everybody...

ahmmm...

2007-09-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

'i cried myself to sleep last night when i woke up there were tears stains on my pillow it hurts so much to sacrifice what i gave up without you in my life i will always be lonely losing the love from someone like you...'

this is my favorite line from the song Losing the Love by Joy Enriquez... i don't know but everytime i hear this favorite song of mine i remember my stupidity that i can't imagine i was able to do it... sacrificing what i gave up it really hurts and it took me so much time to cope up and move on... ahmmm actually i think until now i still have this pain inside that i'm trying to hide and that makes me wonder why...

weeee............

2007-08-12T00:51:00.000+08:00

ewe.... why is it i feel like i'm depriving myself into something that i know from the start is very important for me...?!!! maybe because i know i can't have it, though it's hard but i still have to accept it so that it will be easy for me go on with the things along the way... to be honest i think i'm hurting right now though i don't have to be but i can't help it and it's driving me cra..............zy...!

hahaha...

2007-08-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

well... i just don't know or rather let's say i don't know how to say it.... hhmmm... well it's not that i still have this stupid feelings of mine for him it's just that i just can't understand why everytime i'm near him i felt like nervous and i don't know why... should i felt bad if ever this feelings for him comes back...?!!! and if ever, i don't know maybe i can't accept and i won't allow myself to let it happen because for me it will make things worst though i dont know why...

shit...

2007-06-20T14:34:00.000+08:00

hmmpf... why of all people...? i feel stupid everytime you come nearby... i can't stand to think that i might still have this sentiment for him... what the heck...!!! i have promised to myself that i shouldn't do anything that will make me fall for him once more because i just imagine that this stupid feeling of mine will give up and demand a another chance... why should i? i had enough already that i can't hold with it anymore... and besides i think for sure that i have long ago moved on, you know that presentiment i had before... right now at the moment i'm striving hard not to be so engross whenever he's near because i feel like i'm starting to get graceless... i really wonder why i have to feel this way when i really don't have to...

damn...!!!

2007-03-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

shit...!!! some MORON had just deleted my file... urgh...! i really wan't to scream that everyone in this building will be able to hear... how dare this person...?!!! if ever i found out who you are, beware because i'll never forgive YOU if i can't recover my files you IDIOT...!!! don't you know what did i go through this past few days...?!!! i just lost all my files in my computer and the thing that you have just deleted was my last resort to recover some of it... DAMNIT...!!! why did you do that for..?!!! what's your purpose..?!!! did i did something to you..?!!! lets put it this way, what if i was the one who deleted your files? what will you do..? will you be able to find out if i was the one who deleted your files...?!!! GRRR.... how will i be able to continue my works right now...?!!! you STUPID JERK...!!!

yuck...!

2007-03-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

i really don't understand why there are some people who thought of themselves as superiors though they are not...?!!! as if they got all the authority and power to do this and that even if they're not suppose to... urgh..!!! independent enough because they're into a positioned which some cannot just say no when being asked to do something.... tsk... tsk... tsk... what a mess...!!!

you're hurting me...

2007-01-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

Settled on a ocean surface gazing luminous tide grapple with sentiments, love and pen in hold struggle to write down to you. Seagulls dodge wind surprisingly with waves cracking and pouring. The claw mark of my pen and the weary of an alluring heart within. Daybook turn into midnight hours scribble as the sun spout from the celestial sphere, fawning you were here with me now, thus I urge you to buzz me why? The deep cushy and pleasant rolling, gleaming aurous red orange hue, a cherry tapestry withdrawn before me, and a hope to ravine my thoughts to you. Our shared star cascading beneath the secluded realm heat arc, neutralize sharp vague blue, violet, pink, orange and red sequence. Glowing stars arises one by one of which of each shall I call for? A telescopic blaze of desire to calm the heartache of missing you sadness. Walking down the flow, waves overflowing, affected tears rolling down, letters are through cleansed by the waves, blue ink blots down. Well written words are not satisfying enough to utter how I feel inside, what can I conclude? I really wish you right here with me by my side. A further nightfall by itself walking unescorted this deserted strand, it’s not virtuous to be so distant from you in this genuine love. I chase my brain to awaken your beauteous face appearance and grin, just to have treasured moments with you for a while. My salty tear washed out by waves splash and chilling air, waves breaking off all over my feet, resulting to dripping into my knees. Air shrieking around my ears I cry out your name, only to be damp away by the natural active drizzle.

You swear that you decide on to be right next to me. Anyhow you treat me as if I’m a substitute. You swear that you’ll bestow me all that respect that I wish. Precisely right now you’re telling me, ‘really?!’ and swear that you will not look after the thing. But why now you’re along with into smoking? you swear to me that we’ll constantly be stable. Forthwith, it seemingly that that we don’t get acquainted to each other anymore. Why assure to be attached but then you are taking on someone else. Why you swear to love me beyond limits, but wasn’t you who privately called it quits? You swear to me not to rift my heart but still it has ruined away. You swear me all these things but I then get nothing.

Even though your stare was appealing and your face was always shining from the beacon beneath. The clouds was still so gloomy but still accompanies my breathe. It’s so surreal of feeling this agony that I can’t almost take. By just looking at you bluffs beauty clear, thinking you’re always there for me though I know we’re not compelled to be. Your eyes dazzling like they’re saying, ‘I eternally love admiring you’, but still then without a meaning. Don’t initiate away of why I can’t stop crying. My sprout wings unfurled without urging, even if it makes me not to fly. I unblemished the ache inside my mystical pocket, my sentimental fool seems my deserted wallet. The aftermost words I say is, ‘I love you deeper’, not or even, ‘please guide me in driving this pain’. But I unbidden myself ‘why?’ what obtained this misery? It’s killing me to presume that I posses you and everything and craving that my heart so loves you. This is not proper I know it’s exact. While I see you cry and the sanity that my heart is thumping admittedly can’t break off me from screaming. But the lasting words I said, ‘why can’t you set me free? Hale, you’re hurting me.

should be...

2007-01-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

when someone or somebody will do something wrong to me and really drove me freaking mad, well i just don't do the same to her / him but instead i'll kill him with sweet kindness because as they say guilty feelings is always a nastier revenge and i believe in it. sometimes i just can't take things back to the way they used to be no matter how i try or regardless of how sorry i am because i think or rather let say in life there are no rewinds only plays so we have to play it right... sometimes we have to realize that love is not enough to make a relationship work... we need to have trust for each other, respect, time, effort and a very total commitment. if that certain someone doesn't show any respect, doesn't earn my trust and cannot keep a promise then no matter how many times he say 'i love you' those words will be empty... someone told me that i should take time to listen to what he doesn't say, take time to look at what he doesn't show because maybe there are some secrets hidden beneath his words...! so that is why i shouldn't let passion but wisdom decide for me, and i should love wisely because it's never easy to love and get hurt and i don't know if i can bear it...

always...

2007-01-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

I can’t sleep anymore without thinking of you. I won’t forget the tears I cried with all those sleepless nights that passes by, I will always hold a special place for you here inside my heart. There were so many good times that I know will last forever. There where minutes that I’m gone swearing that you’ll never leave me and promises that you will always be there right by my side, in your heart and in your eyes. This time I’ll give it up because I know that there are things that are better left unsaid and that all I have right now are the lasting dreams were our words spoke more this time it seems. I’m already lost just for you with those moments that stay true. I will go far away as I can just to be able to say to you that I missed you much. I really missed the chance I have to say to you that those memories of years we had that passed away will always be forever true. The walls between us that keep us apart tell the stories of passed years that gone by. You, breaking the promises, having some of our pictures in black and white, holding back the words I’ve said and bid goodbye with open wound and broken heart, I somehow wish to say that time to please stay even for one last night.

6 Random Facts About Me

2006-12-15T16:11:00.000+08:00

been tagged by Alma. Once tagged, write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. In the end of it, pick six of your friends and tag them! No tag backs. The explanation must be included, of course.

1. eat a lot but doesn't get fat
= i really eat a lot but... but... but... i don't get any fats, not that i don't have any fats in my body it's just that i was like still slim...? even you guyz can call me skinny when seeing me in person and that is a big question...

2. at night when can't sleep easily must read to make myself drowsy
= i really can't sleep when i'm not reading something that is why i have so many kinds of books of any kind in my bed from historical romance to fictional...

3. likes reading books of any kind
= i really like reading books esp. when it is historical romance or ethic or some kind of a series juz like the harry potter which i have read its book from 1-6...

4. movie fanatic
= i really am a movie fanatic especially when it comes to my fave actors and actresses...

5. cuts my hair once a year
= that is true... i had my hair cut only for once in a year...

6. has driver's liscense but doesn't know how to drive
= until now i still don't know how to drive and that's driving me crazy...

i am tagging the writers of the following:
dacky
ting2
cherry joy
totwa's hunt
gracey's under the sun
ite alumni

gosh...!!

2006-11-25T15:26:00.000+08:00

it's been so long but still i can remember everything... the way when you annoy me but makes me feel so safe when you're just around or beside me... i never thought we would be apart (as if naging tayo or meron..?!), but now it's just been way too long since that maybe the incident?... i really want to hear you voice again, you and i talking to each other in a smooth way, miss the way you make me smile... i don't know but for me i know maybe having my life with you would not be perfect but that's life and there's nothing i can do about it... the way i felt for you before was still here until now... i thought after you've hurt me would fade you away from my mind and of course in my heart but i was wrong, very wrong... i sometimes wake up each day dreaming of you and i together. i will never forget you and i also hope you do and all that i am will always be the same... i'm here right now all alone lying here in sorrow, i longed to hold and talk to you... i just realize that i was trying to replace you since i've made that decision (and it's because of you...!) when you'd hurt me so much... it's not that no one can make me laugh and smile like the way you do but at some point in my life you made me so happy and i don't know when was that... maybe no one can ever take your special place here in my heart... i feel that my heart was smashed into peices and left me crying every night to sleep with a pain in my heart of how you've hurt me... i know you don't realize what you have just done to me 'cause i know you're too dumb to admit it... i was soooo stupid of allowing myself to fall for you and having this mistake would never bring me back the things i used to do... i know i'm not that perfect, but before i used to think that i don't want to give you up... i've waited too long just to be with you but i guessed it would never happen... i used to think that you know that i like you a lot, but that was before... but i guess i need to vent and let you know how i feel to ease the pain i had inside and please don't take my venting in the wrong way because that would just make me even more imperfect than i already am...

for you...?

2006-11-05T18:18:00.000+08:00

i really like this song because this is the first song i heard when i was totally hurt and was trying to move on...

2006-11-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

i some kind of affected by this qoute and i don't know why...?

have i..?!!!

2006-10-25T12:19:00.000+08:00

have i...? why they say or ask if i have moved on...? as if i was hurt or whatsoever... maybe i was but it didn't take me too long to get over with. i don't want to allow myself to lose my head over him, ewe... it doesn't mean because i was so maybe infatuated to him before that my head will be over my heels because of him, who does he think he is?! as of now well it's not that i don't care about him anymore but what i mean is i just don't want to be near him because i don't know i always get upset and i don't know why.. someone told me that why don't i wish that sometime i was a little kid again because skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts and i answered that well it's ok and i've already move on because i know very well from the start that we're not meant for each other though sometimes i can't help to think why him...? of all people... well i guess that's life and just have to go with the flow...

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goodbye...

2006-10-05T10:44:00.000+08:00

it's really hard to say goodbye to someone whom you've known like for more than a decade.. if i were to ask, i wouldn't let her go but what can i do? if i was her i would also wish or plan to go to another country to have a work that is suitable for me, living in country were finding a job or employment rate is very low... i was hoping or wish that i can go with her but not until i finish my studies.. well anyway she promise that she will come to my graduation day (hopefully soon...) and i know she will cause she say's so that she'll be here a year after... and if ever i plan to go abroad she promised that she will help me in anyway she can.. ask her 3 days ago what it will be like there living all alone...? she answered then that it will be really hard for me, but i know i can do this'.. that was her answer... we kept teasing her together with our friend that she can't do it and it would not take too long before she will be back here in the philippines, because the truth is we'll be really missing her so much.. she always plead to us that we must not make it hard for her and she needed our full support.. and it is what we are going to do. well i hope and i know that she'll be fine there with the people around her who's in full support in everything she does and so do i...

ouch...!2

2006-10-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

here i am again... i don't know, maybe i'm just paranoid.. i think i feel dumb and stupid with the people and the things that is happening around, not knowing what were they really thinking.. should i get mad or what..?! i also think that i don't have the right to get annoyed or hurt, should i? but to tell the truth, behind my joys and laughters right now is so many kinds of pains i try to hide... to get over with it, i tried to do a lot of things just to divert my attention from it, like trying to sleep late at night or eating as much as i wanted. though it's hard but i'm trying, because it's like almost everyday that this pain inside is getting worse that i can't almost bear it anymore...

hahai...

2006-09-25T18:56:00.000+08:00

oh my, what day... early in the morning yesterday i'm already pissed off by this person or rather let's say i was hurt, if only she knew how mad i was to her when she told me that . .... ...., and if i only knew that that would be her answer when iwas just telling her something i wish i didn't ask her right away... hhmmm... it was about to fade away when she kept telling me this i thought the magic word but well i don't know for others but for me, well i don't know what would be the perfect or nice word or sentence to say.. i can't explain it either and until now i'm still mad.. i didn't have time to sleep just because of it... well i guess i have to get over with it or forget about it (forgive and forget...?!!!) because i think i might get crazy and i don't want it to happen, though i think the wound inside is still in the process to be healed...

pissed off...!

2006-09-18T16:19:00.000+08:00

here i am again... honest to goodness i am already pissed off to those people whom i thought are real... maybe they are but its just that i don't know i felt like i'm an outsider or alien or whatsoever... i'm trying to make it like nothing happen. sometimes i think that eversince from the start they don't like me, they're just pretending to be and i'm so dumb for not noticing it. i know i need not to do anything to make people please in everything that i do because you can't please them that easy even if I wanted to. what i wanted to say is that if they don't like or to be with me i wanted them to say it in front me not with behind my back because that would make my world for sure crazy.... as of now i felt bad and pity for myself because of this situation that i am in right now... i don't know when will i be able to overcome this but i'm trying, because if i go on like this i don't know what will happen to me for the next few days that is why i hope that i will and when that time comes that will make me feel at ease again...

reflection1

2006-08-04T03:17:00.000+08:00

just reflection for me to remind myself that lifeis really about living for God not for myself because we just borrowed it. Despite all the things that is happening around me I shouldn't forget that God is still there. I must also focus to to Him because He's the one I know who is responsible why I'm still here on earth. I should give more time to Him and focus it only to Him. Thank Him for allowing me once again to live together with the people I love and can't live without. Because if not for them aside from the up above I wouldn't be able maybe here right now. I know that I don't have the right to question God about what's happening, why there's so many obstacles that I can't almost bear, but sometimes a person can't avoid it especially if you're at a certain point where you can almost reach the thing you've always long for and yet all of a sudden it just got lost without knowing the real reason why and you have no one you can turn to. But well, that's life people will later realize that it's not right to question God in many failures that you've or I encountered (I really haven't questioned Him at all...!) but instead focus myself hardly to Him and ask for his guidance in every step that I take . Of course say sorry in all mistakes that I shouldn't have done that just cause me nothing but pain. Thank Him in every blessings that He showered upon us. People must always remember that in every happinessnthat they felt, sadness comes next whether they like it or not.

what should i do?

2006-07-17T09:37:00.000+08:00

for some reason, sometimes i don't understand why these past few days i felt like i did nothing for good, I mean I really feel that I'm useless... sometimes i tried to smile to hide the pain or laugh to cover the hurt i felt inside... we know that life never seems the way we want it but we try so hard to live the best we can. i know that if you're inlove you need not to ask advice from the others because it's better to think that you're hurt because of you're own decision rather than to accept the wrong move you've done because of listening to others. they say that at some point we hate the person who hurt us, but what will you do if you knew that certain person..? well... i really don't know what to do either., why do we say we're ok whenever we get hurt? is this the way to show to everyone that we're brave enough to handle the pain? or just our way to pretend we're fine though we all know that we're totally broken.. on the hardest time of my life is being questioned when me myself don't even understand, trying to forget of something that i know i never will, and this time trying to part and letting go of someone that i'm beginning to love..? though it hurts but i should learn to let go... sometime we have to stop loving someone because we don't have anymore reasons to fight for what we feel. loving him was one thing i was afraid of and i was certainly right because it hurts, it's hard to love him when I know I can never have him in any ways I wanted especially when i think that I've already admitted to myself that I've already fallen for that someone. it's really hard to go on while you love someone secretly and it hurts when seeing your love with someone else... this heart of mine sometimes speaks of so much things or feelings to this someone i knew i thought was listening but i was very wrong because all along this person never even dared to listen... I always say that I'm afraid to get hurt that is why I can't even admit to this someone what i really felt and ends up saying 'shit!'... sometimes i think that love is stupid because i tend to love someone who i know can't love me. i know feelings must be expressed, but for me i just can't and i think I never will.

is it...?

2006-07-17T09:27:00.000+08:00

hmm... just wanted to say or ask this, "does pain can really melt away the love?"

why

2006-07-14T18:10:00.000+08:00

well yesterday for me it was so tiring, it's not that i did something the whole day to make me feel exhausted it's just that i was getting tired of hearing the people around me telling me this 'what if he was the one...?' or 'what will i do if one day he will...? urgh..! its making me sick! i do admit that I told to them that he was my crush, but... but... but... that was before and we've talked about it for so many times like i started to feel of being a 'pirated cd'., why? because of those for me a unnerving questions that they always asked... i always told them that it is very much impossible, the thing or whatsoever they wanted to happen between me and him... then they will say that i can't say no or deny because as they say i was very obvious, was I? for them to be satisfied I kept myself quiet and tell them nothing. they say that why would I be so afraid of confiding to them my true feeelings for him..? i just reply i can't tell you anything about it yet because i myself don't even understand or don't know., or maybe i was just afraid to know of what will be the answer.. well, this past few days or weeks i was thinking or rather lets say reflecting that 'what if?' asked so many questions like 'do i still have feelings for him?.' to my surprise i think my answer would be 'yes?'... but... but.. but... again that would be subject to confirm, because i'm not yet sure, I really am. I still have one thing to do before confirming it and that is to talk to him, not about my feelings but it is what my friend and I did to him... I know for me was not that seriouse but then again I don't know what is it for him.. We're not even in good terms as of now. My collegues says that 'that was a few months ago' and i just told them that 'I know and you both know very well that we're not that close' and we both had this attitude 'hot temper', that's why we can't face to each other without yelling or shouting and that is why I always remind myself not to think about it of what my friends was longing to happen for us... As of the moment I see to it that if possible I must avoid that whenever we had this small talk or bonding that the topic will be me and him because I just don't want to not unless what I wanted to do will be granted..

duh...!

2006-05-16T15:45:00.000+08:00

why is it that everyone that surrounds me insists that this certain guy we both all know hjad a thing on me... i really don't believe it, why? its because it's really impossible for that guy to well like me..? ewe... my colleagues usually say whenever we had this girl talk that why won't I believe it when in fact its obvious; i told them oh really, well sorry i didn't notice, and why would i notice it when i'm not even thinking about. it's them who keeps on observing things that happens around between me and him... they keep on asking if ever he will talk to me what will i do.? well just talk to him and thats it.. honestly i really wanted to talk to him and make things clear, its not that we had this so called special relationship, its just that i had this feeling that he's mad at me because of what I and my friend did. we both know its not that serious well we don't know what is it for him, but for us it is. I wanted to say sorry to him personally but I just cant and i dont know why. I guess I will never even have the chance, maybe at this moment because maybe its not yet the time but i hope that that time will come, because maybe for me it would be the only way that our relationship as friends will be back, i will talk to him normally and the other way around...

alma's reaction...!!!

2006-05-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

kahapon bago me nag uli, cge me lalis ni alma whether kung sa balay na lang siya maligo or mag uli pa siya sa ila balay... gina insist nako sa iya na sa balay na lang para dili na siya mag balik2, kay mao lang gihapon ang gasto dah ba...?!! as in kulit au imagine maulaw daw siya, ingnan pud nako pag puyo oi...! karon pa ka ma ulaw ka dugay na nimo sige tulog sa balay, ka baga na lang jud ug kewong....! hay... nagnu naa may mga tao na ulawon daw kuno pero baga gud ug nawung.... well... well... well... dili sa ana ako pasabot kay alma, gusto lang nako na dil;i na siya au maka gas2 kay as far as i know naga tipid siya kay iyaha lagi daw na gas2 na summer niya karon... kay for everyone's benefit alma is a full scholar student ... as in dili ka maka kita ug grade ani na below 90, sus kanus-a pa kaya ko maka grade ug ingana...?!!! kung ako sa imo almz ayaw na pag ulaw2..

ouch...!!!

2005-12-16T17:27:00.000+08:00

why...?, when i knew that he had already a girlfriend parang hindi ko yata matanggap.... though i know na hindi ko na siya crush but still i think the pain is still there... i don't know why pero medyo nabigla ako... my friendly friends asked me kung lang ba ako you know, and as usual of course i denied it to them... i don't know why but i really don't wanna let them know about it... hindi ko alam kung ano ang mangyayari pag nalaman nila ang tungkol dito.... as of now napapansin ko lang, lagi ako napipikon sa kanya, parang hindi ko ma take ang mga kalokohan na ginagawa niya, yun ba sabi nila na ina away ako; ewan ko kung bakit... the truth was i really dont know up to this moment if i still have a crush on him kuno...! kasi minsan nasaktan talaga ako nang sinabi niya na hindi kami close (well hindi naman talaga...!) tapos i ask him i favor na hindi niya ginawa kasi nga hindi naman raw kami close nor friends.... as in na hurt talaga ako i never expected na sasabihin niya sa akin pa mismo... halos maiyak ako sa harapan niya pero buti na lang napigilan ko... hindi ko nga halos maintindihan ang mga pinag gagawa ko nun that time sa kaiisip kung bakit niya yun nasabi... well unfortunately sa ngayon i accepted it na kasi wala rin naman ako magawa... kaya nga medyo iniiwasan ko siya minsan ayaw ko lumapit ni kausapin not unless siya ang nauna ok lang... pero kung ako mauna...? never...! over my dead soul...! naisip ko ko nga, bakit pa ba ako nagka crush sa kanya...? yes guwapo siya, mabait rin naman, hindi ko lang alam kung gentleman siya... sabi nila suplado raw..., wala rin ako masabi.... basta sa ngayon para sa akin unti - unti ko na sinasanay ang sarili ko na hindi siya lapitan... hindi sa ayaw ko mapalapit sa kanya, kaya lang siguro natatakot lang ako na tuluyan na mahulog sa kanya... ngayon nga hindi ko pa rin matanggap na may crush raw ako sa kanya (kuno..!) how much more kung magkalapit kami... ano ba talaga ang dapat ko gawin...? dahil sa totoo lang nahihirapan na rin ako...

what............?!!!

2005-11-24T15:05:00.000+08:00

last year, there's this certain guy that really caught my attention., at first i didn't wan't to entertain it but as time goes by its like it was always him hmm... let say siya ang lagi ko nakikita, ewan ko ba kung bakit. i immediately told my friend just right beside me and pointed to her the guy that i just saw and i was right we both had the same reaction about him, 'guwapo siya'... she even told me (my classmate) that they were schoolmate before during her high school years, hay how small the world is talaga... from then on that guy which i will call him at the moment as 'star' was always on my mind (ows....?!), i even had a picture on him during a certain event that made my attraction to him grow stronger., but because of our projects that made us busy of course hindi ko na siya masyado nakikita kasabay ng pa unti - unit pagka wala ng attraction ko sa kanya, i dont know why basta yun na yun... during our second semester we became classmates in on of my majors, and at that time parang wala lang, and mas nakilala ko siya at tama nga ang sabi ng friend ko na mabait siya.... i was wondering then why...? kung kailan na mas palagi ko na siya nakikita at makakausap parang wala yung feeling nung una ko siya makita parang spark ba o magic i dont know... to the point that i conclude that what i'm feeling for from the first time that i saw him was gone hindi ko alam kung bakit.... hanggang sa mag end ang 2nd semester class namin w/o explaining what i was really feeling about him... and again we became classmate at the start of the first sem just this year and i was determined that i don't have a crush on him anymore... but... but... but there's this certain event that just happened right after 1st semester class of this school year ended that made me realized if my feelings for him was really gone... i didn't expect naman kasi that he would do that such thing to me that might as well will make the other girls giggles... according to my friendly friends whom i was with during that escapade 'its like he took the authority in taking care of me' well at first i don't believe kasi naman who would have though that a guy like him will you know make all the necessary things just to make sure i'm all safe and alright...but then as i slowly remember it's like that's when i realized if my feelings for him was still there... ewan ko ba habang naaalala koduring those times na nag rereminisce ako sa escapade parang unti-unti rin bumabalik you know my feelings for him... pero crush lang nothing exceeds... but some of friendly friends na nakasama ko sa escapade kinukulit ako kung natuluyan na ba talaga ako sa kanya... but my answer to them is NO...! kasi hindi ko matanggap na bumalik yung feelings ko sa kanya.... honestly kasi though we both all know na age doesn't matter but still i can't accept the fact na mas bata siya sa akin and... ayaw ko sa chain smoker talgang turn off sa akin yun.. pero that's not the point nor the question., the question is kung natuluyan ba talaga ako sa kanya i admitted to them naman kasi na before he was my crush but that then before hindi na ngayon pero mostly sa kanila hindi naniniwala, well i don't care problema na nila yun... well sa ngayon unti - unti ko na tinatanggap na crush ko na siya ulit., sana lang hindi niya malaman kasi i don't want to lose the kind of friendship that we had that i consider it as special....(,")

my favorite quote

2005-10-01T02:32:00.000+08:00

life without love has no life at all.

blah... blah....

2005-10-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

why is it that when you're telling the truth no one will believe you, but if you're not they insist it is... why do they have to tell me who am i to go with and who's not? do they really don't have that trust? well i don't know for the others but for me it is really painful when they just suddenly accuse you of something you can't think you can do it.. it's not that i don't have that confidence or whatsoever, it's like in the past few days when something is losing they will immediately think that its i who did it when in fact i do not know what's missing thus i wasn't even at the place where the incident happened., when they see that you're stuttering at the every word you say they will immediately conclude that its you... well we all know that it's a sin when you accused someone not even knowing what really happened nor getting mad but though they say that it's only you or i who was left while we're somewhere else or blah... blah... then everything and everyone around you changes, just because of that.... when you're going somewhere else they will think that you're on a date when you're not or when they see me talking w/a group of pipz they don't know they will think that i'm on something that it's just a lie when i will tell them that where just talking about our projects or the happenings around us., you see it really hurts when the only persons you can turn to are the persons who will let you down, that instead they will give you the best encouraging words to inspire me they will tell 'hey that's not good for you!' or 'they're bad influence' because of what they saw; it's like they knew already the person whom i'm going with everyday when infact it was their first time to see each other., i really can't help getting mad at them sometimes because of it. i couldn't believe that they can do it in front of me and tells you that i must not go with them anymore, because they're not doing any good to me.. if they only knew that what they're saying is hurting me., that is why sometimes i think that it's better to get beaten than hearing those painful words over and over again.... hmmmm.. do hope that someday they will realize that the words they're saying was much worse than hitting me....

hhmmmm.............

2005-09-30T06:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm napag isip2 ko na hindi sa lahat ng oras maintindihan ka ng mga tao naka palibot sayo., it's like the feeling of emptiness when you feel like no one will understand what you're feeling you do not know anymore what to do like you just want to die at the certain moment when you're down.... bakit ganun, ang tagal2 na pero bakit parang crush ko pa rin xa hanggabg ngayon?, crush lang ba o in love na talaga ako sa kanya?, ah... ewan d ko talaga alam, kasi naman neighbors na nga kami d pa kami masyado nagkikita, medyo malayo rin naman bahay nila sa amin pero kahit na... i always deny to myself na hindi ko na xa crush nor i'm in love with him, pero kahapon lang nakita ko siya kahit naka talikod parang unti - unti bumabalik yung feeling na pilit ko ina - alis.. ano ba talaga ang dapat ko gawin? pilit ko naman tinutuon ang pansin ko sa iba para lang ma alis ang feeling ko sa kanya.. sana naman maturuan itong puso ko tumingin sa iba, parang nahihirapan na kasi ako, ang sakit2 lalo na nang malaman ko na aalis na xa indue time pag tapos niya sa kanyang second course na nursing... i know mahirap kalabanin ang puso lalo na pag love ang pinag - uusapan... sana lang...