hahai...

oh my, what day... early in the morning yesterday i'm already pissed off by this person or rather let's say i was hurt, if only she knew how mad i was to her when she told me that . .... ...., and if i only knew that that would be her answer when iwas just telling her something i wish i didn't ask her right away... hhmmm... it was about to fade away when she kept telling me this i thought the magic word but well i don't know for others but for me, well i don't know what would be the perfect or nice word or sentence to say.. i can't explain it either and until now i'm still mad.. i didn't have time to sleep just because of it... well i guess i have to get over with it or forget about it (forgive and forget...?!!!) because i think i might get crazy and i don't want it to happen, though i think the wound inside is still in the process to be healed...

pissed off...!

here i am again... honest to goodness i am already pissed off to those people whom i thought are real... maybe they are but its just that i don't know i felt like i'm an outsider or alien or whatsoever... i'm trying to make it like nothing happen. sometimes i think that eversince from the start they don't like me, they're just pretending to be and i'm so dumb for not noticing it. i know i need not to do anything to make people please in everything that i do because you can't please them that easy even if I wanted to. what i wanted to say is that if they don't like or to be with me i wanted them to say it in front me not with behind my back because that would make my world for sure crazy.... as of now i felt bad and pity for myself because of this situation that i am in right now... i don't know when will i be able to overcome this but i'm trying, because if i go on like this i don't know what will happen to me for the next few days that is why i hope that i will and when that time comes that will make me feel at ease again...