weeee............

ewe.... why is it i feel like i'm depriving myself into something that i know from the start is very important for me...?!!! maybe because i know i can't have it, though it's hard but i still have to accept it so that it will be easy for me go on with the things along the way... to be honest i think i'm hurting right now though i don't have to be but i can't help it and it's driving me cra..............zy...!

hahaha...

well... i just don't know or rather let's say i don't know how to say it.... hhmmm... well it's not that i still have this stupid feelings of mine for him it's just that i just can't understand why everytime i'm near him i felt like nervous and i don't know why... should i felt bad if ever this feelings for him comes back...?!!! and if ever, i don't know maybe i can't accept and i won't allow myself to let it happen because for me it will make things worst though i dont know why...

shit...

hmmpf... why of all people...? i feel stupid everytime you come nearby... i can't stand to think that i might still have this sentiment for him... what the heck...!!! i have promised to myself that i shouldn't do anything that will make me fall for him once more because i just imagine that this stupid feeling of mine will give up and demand a another chance... why should i? i had enough already that i can't hold with it anymore... and besides i think for sure that i have long ago moved on, you know that presentiment i had before... right now at the moment i'm striving hard not to be so engross whenever he's near because i feel like i'm starting to get graceless... i really wonder why i have to feel this way when i really don't have to...

damn...!!!

shit...!!! some MORON had just deleted my file... urgh...! i really wan't to scream that everyone in this building will be able to hear... how dare this person...?!!! if ever i found out who you are, beware because i'll never forgive YOU if i can't recover my files you IDIOT...!!! don't you know what did i go through this past few days...?!!! i just lost all my files in my computer and the thing that you have just deleted was my last resort to recover some of it... DAMNIT...!!! why did you do that for..?!!! what's your purpose..?!!! did i did something to you..?!!! lets put it this way, what if i was the one who deleted your files? what will you do..? will you be able to find out if i was the one who deleted your files...?!!! GRRR.... how will i be able to continue my works right now...?!!! you STUPID JERK...!!!

yuck...!

i really don't understand why there are some people who thought of themselves as superiors though they are not...?!!! as if they got all the authority and power to do this and that even if they're not suppose to... urgh..!!! independent enough because they're into a positioned which some cannot just say no when being asked to do something.... tsk... tsk... tsk... what a mess...!!!