this...

do people notice when i'm in such sour mood or something..? i don't think so... well that's what i'm capable of hiding something though already on the verge to explode when not drawn out. why can't i get over with this....? the agony i had inside now, why is it so painful...?!!! it's killing me... i haven't done anything wrong but why can't i be calm? it's making me cry at night when just thinking about before going to sleep... o crap it's freaking me out if i stil can't do anything about it... i'm not used to express on what is on my mind but there's nothing i can do. not that i trust no one maybe i'm not that confident enough to tell how or what i feel at a certain moment when i needed someone to be there beside me... good thing this blog thing appears where as far as i know put my sentiments and frustrations. people say that nobody will hear your song if you only sing in your heart, you have to give voice to your thoughts for them to be heard. i may have this song of mine in my heart but the person who might be listening to it is not yet born so maybe that is why i still can't voice the thought in it... hhmmm well, hopefully someday i will be able to find that someone (neither a a boy or girl) whom i know is worth to listening to my song that i have to voice out....