duh...!

why is it that everyone that surrounds me insists that this certain guy we both all know hjad a thing on me... i really don't believe it, why? its because it's really impossible for that guy to well like me..? ewe... my colleagues usually say whenever we had this girl talk that why won't I believe it when in fact its obvious; i told them oh really, well sorry i didn't notice, and why would i notice it when i'm not even thinking about. it's them who keeps on observing things that happens around between me and him... they keep on asking if ever he will talk to me what will i do.? well just talk to him and thats it.. honestly i really wanted to talk to him and make things clear, its not that we had this so called special relationship, its just that i had this feeling that he's mad at me because of what I and my friend did. we both know its not that serious well we don't know what is it for him, but for us it is. I wanted to say sorry to him personally but I just cant and i dont know why. I guess I will never even have the chance, maybe at this moment because maybe its not yet the time but i hope that that time will come, because maybe for me it would be the only way that our relationship as friends will be back, i will talk to him normally and the other way around...