ouch...!2

here i am again... i don't know, maybe i'm just paranoid.. i think i feel dumb and stupid with the people and the things that is happening around, not knowing what were they really thinking.. should i get mad or what..?! i also think that i don't have the right to get annoyed or hurt, should i? but to tell the truth, behind my joys and laughters right now is so many kinds of pains i try to hide... to get over with it, i tried to do a lot of things just to divert my attention from it, like trying to sleep late at night or eating as much as i wanted. though it's hard but i'm trying, because it's like almost everyday that this pain inside is getting worse that i can't almost bear it anymore...